There are extraordinary circumstances surrounding the birth of my little girl…and since the day I knew she was there she has been my little miracle ever since…
She continues to amaze me every day…
When I finally was able to pick her up yesterday she nearly knocked me over hugging me so hard…I hadn't seen her for almost 2 entire days…
Even though I had my *happy face* on somehow she knew just how much I needed her…my night was full of hugs, kisses, *I Love You Mommys and Mommy*, *You are my Best Friend*
I don’t keep her in the dark about what has been going on, but being as young as she is she doesn’t understand…but somehow she understands enough to know when mommy really needs her...
In the words of one of my closest friends…*You never know true love until you have a child*
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Things I think About In The Middle of The Night
Its 3am…and I have been just sitting here watching her sleep…the last 7 hours have been a nightmare…
It is so strange to me how roles can reverse in the blink of an eye…for 32 years she has been my "rock" and taken care of me in every way I have ever needed…but there comes a point where the child has to become the "rock" and this is the time…
In a perfect world…it would be as easy as that…but you never know how difficult it is until you live it…
Seeing someone you love go through so much and be so weak is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with…
Its now 3pm…
Once again watching her sleep…thinking about how valuable life and love is…
In this life I am blessed to have some wonderful friends…even though there is great distance between us…and you all know who you are…ones who stayed up late til I knew everything was OK…and ones that were there to "talk me off the ledge" way early this morning…
"Can miles truly separate you from friends? If you want to be with someone you love, arent you already there?" ~ Richard Bach
Less than 24 hours ago I thought I was losing everything…and I almost did twice…but strength surprises you…friendship surprises you…and just when you think all hope is lost…connections surprise you…
"Distance doesn't matter if you really care for a person. What matters most is your honesty and trust for the relationship to work out" ~ Unknown
Thank you to everyone who has sent prayers and good wishes…you will never know how much it means to me…
I still have a long road ahead…but at least I know I have people around who will be there for me…xoxo
It is so strange to me how roles can reverse in the blink of an eye…for 32 years she has been my "rock" and taken care of me in every way I have ever needed…but there comes a point where the child has to become the "rock" and this is the time…
In a perfect world…it would be as easy as that…but you never know how difficult it is until you live it…
Seeing someone you love go through so much and be so weak is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with…
Its now 3pm…
Once again watching her sleep…thinking about how valuable life and love is…
In this life I am blessed to have some wonderful friends…even though there is great distance between us…and you all know who you are…ones who stayed up late til I knew everything was OK…and ones that were there to "talk me off the ledge" way early this morning…
"Can miles truly separate you from friends? If you want to be with someone you love, arent you already there?" ~ Richard Bach
Less than 24 hours ago I thought I was losing everything…and I almost did twice…but strength surprises you…friendship surprises you…and just when you think all hope is lost…connections surprise you…
"Distance doesn't matter if you really care for a person. What matters most is your honesty and trust for the relationship to work out" ~ Unknown
Thank you to everyone who has sent prayers and good wishes…you will never know how much it means to me…
I still have a long road ahead…but at least I know I have people around who will be there for me…xoxo
Thursday, April 23, 2009
The Thunderstorm: Trauma in the life of a 3 year old
Several days ago we had our first real thunderstorm of Florida “rainy season”…the last one being many months ago. It was early in the morning and I was getting ready to head out to work…Emily was still asleep (her daddys day to drive). The noise of the thunder woke her and she was petrified. Aside from having forgotten about the storms she has recently lost her tubes and now noises seem more amplified since her ear canals are clear. Nothing could console this usually very tough 3 and a half year old.
On my way to work “the light in my attic” went off as I wondered how in the world we would get through a hurricane with her. Since hurricane season is approaching I figure it is better to start now.
So where should I start??? As usual my first instinct is to “google” it. Here is what I found from the State of Florida Department of Children and Families:
http://www.doh.state.fl.us/family/mch/HurricaneTips/Children.pdf
I also remembered about a video I once saw starring our favorite Sesame Street characters:
There's a hurricane headed toward Sesame Street! When weatherman Al Roker issues a weather warning for Sesame Street, the neighborhood prepares for the big storm by collecting supplies, taping windows, and gathering together to stay safe and ... Full Descriptiondry. But after the storm passes, Big Bird is heartbroken to discover that his nest has been destroyed. All of Sesame Street joins together to rebuild Big Bird's nest twig by twig and raise his spirits hug by hug. This video special is a powerful tool to encourage children to help each other when facing real challenges. Also included are 2 interactive preschool games and parenting tips.
Please post any tips you may have to help ease the fear of storms and other natural disasters for our children.
Until next time…Have a “Sunshiny” Day!
On my way to work “the light in my attic” went off as I wondered how in the world we would get through a hurricane with her. Since hurricane season is approaching I figure it is better to start now.
So where should I start??? As usual my first instinct is to “google” it. Here is what I found from the State of Florida Department of Children and Families:
http://www.doh.state.fl.us/family/mch/HurricaneTips/Children.pdf
I also remembered about a video I once saw starring our favorite Sesame Street characters:
There's a hurricane headed toward Sesame Street! When weatherman Al Roker issues a weather warning for Sesame Street, the neighborhood prepares for the big storm by collecting supplies, taping windows, and gathering together to stay safe and ... Full Descriptiondry. But after the storm passes, Big Bird is heartbroken to discover that his nest has been destroyed. All of Sesame Street joins together to rebuild Big Bird's nest twig by twig and raise his spirits hug by hug. This video special is a powerful tool to encourage children to help each other when facing real challenges. Also included are 2 interactive preschool games and parenting tips.Please post any tips you may have to help ease the fear of storms and other natural disasters for our children.
Until next time…Have a “Sunshiny” Day!
A “Book-A-Holics” Dream…someone pinch me!!!
As most of you know I am a self-proclaimed “book-a-holic” (especially “The Twilight Saga” and the “Sookie Stackhouse Series”). Being a VERY BUSY working mom sometimes means that I don’t necessarily have time to make it to the bookstore as frequently as I would like. Guess what I found??? A super cool website that not only has just about every book under the sun…but they also find it for you at the best price (love me a good bargain).
Check it out: http://www.wecomparebooks.com/
Check it out: http://www.wecomparebooks.com/
I was even able to find “The Twilight Saga: The Official Guide” by Stephenie Meyer. For those of you (like myself) who are consumed by the story of Edward and Bella and are craving more…it will be on its way soon! (Yes, Yadi…I mean you…xoxo) Scheduled to be released in September 2009.
The Only Official Guide to The Twilight Saga!
This must-have edition is the definitive encyclopedic reference to The Twilight Saga. Produced with Stephenie Meyer, it includes new material, character profiles, genealogical charts, maps, extensive cross-references, and more. It’s the essential handbook for every Twilight Saga fan.
Find “The Twilight Saga: The Official Guide” by Stephenie Meyer here:
http://www.wecomparebooks.com/compare.php?BookISBN=0316043125&BookTitle=The+Twilight+Saga
I was able to locate the book on http://www.wecomparebooks.com/ and can’t wait until payday to order it!!! (Hmmm…*scratching head*…wondering if they will give me a bulk discount for books if I have my paycheck direct deposit to them??? LOL)
Until next time…Have a “Sunshiny” Day!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
"When he is hurting...why do I feel the pain?" ~ me
"Never miss an opportunity to make others happy, even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it" ~ Unknown
Have you ever met someone that you found instant connection with?
Recently I have found someone who clearly fits that description. On several occasions we have refered to ourselves as "two peas in a pod". I have never in my life met someone so similar yet so different from myself.
"When he is hurting...why do I feel the pain?" ~ me
It has been a difficult time in both of our lives, and thankfully we have been able to lean on each other to get through it.
This past week life has become much more complicated for my friend and I am feeling like my extremely good intentions Keep going sour.
Maybe I am not saying the right things or maybe they are being interpreted wrong. Either way, I am torn as to whether I should keep trying or take a step back.
It is so hard to see a person you deeply care about going through such confusion, complication and in some cases hurt. I can only hope that they realize that they do not have to go through it alone and someone who really cares is standing right in front of them...
So if you are reading this...I am here...always was...always will be! xoxo
Have you ever met someone that you found instant connection with?
Recently I have found someone who clearly fits that description. On several occasions we have refered to ourselves as "two peas in a pod". I have never in my life met someone so similar yet so different from myself.
"When he is hurting...why do I feel the pain?" ~ me
It has been a difficult time in both of our lives, and thankfully we have been able to lean on each other to get through it.
This past week life has become much more complicated for my friend and I am feeling like my extremely good intentions Keep going sour.
Maybe I am not saying the right things or maybe they are being interpreted wrong. Either way, I am torn as to whether I should keep trying or take a step back.
It is so hard to see a person you deeply care about going through such confusion, complication and in some cases hurt. I can only hope that they realize that they do not have to go through it alone and someone who really cares is standing right in front of them...
So if you are reading this...I am here...always was...always will be! xoxo
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Where do you find your strength from?
“When you stop having dreams and ideals - well, you might as well stop altogether.” ~ Marian Anderson
It is no secret that I have been going through a rough time in my life these days…and then it dawned on me as I was enjoying my beautiful sunny South Florida Morning that I may be looking for strength in the wrong places…
I realized that the secret to my happiness is right in front of me.
So, on that note…I have decided I AM going to take that vacation I have been taking about…not sure where to yet…but rejuvenating and taking care of me is extremely necessary…I am no good to anyone else unless I take care of myself first.
I also take comfort in knowing that there are so many wonderful people in my life who are ready and willing to jump in and support me anytime I need. I also find strength in another place…a little world called Twitter…some may think that my life is like an open book on there…but what is not realized is that I have become involved in a wonderful group of wives and mothers who seem to always be there for each other when we need it most…and until you understand what it is like to be a wife and mother…you will never understand the importance of having an outlet with other strong wonderful women.
So to my girlies…I love ya!!! (Especially that Texas girl)
So in my “mission” to find strength and get that inner-girl out, I am wondering (and not just to fellow moms) where do you find your strength???
Thursday, April 9, 2009
He is always watching over us…
My Poppy (my moms father) passed away 27 years ago yesterday. Ever since his death, he has been making sure that we all know that he is watching over us.
There have been many very random occurrences in my life that only this wonderful man could have caused:
When my daughter was a year old I had decided it was time to send her to pre-school and it was time for me to go back to work. This (as all you mothers know is probably more difficult on us mommies than on our little angels). The theme for the first week was “The Places We Will Go” (yes, inspired by the Dr. Seuss book). One of the art projects they made that week involved cut up pieces of random maps being glued on paper. When I got her project home and took a closer look it was maps of New York (pretty funny since I live in Florida). So I got curious and checked out the streets. I was amazed, baffled, and emotional when I realized that on one of the cut up pieces was the cemetery where my Poppy is buried. To this day that art project is framed with a picture of him and hangs over her bed. Could it be that he thought I was doing the right thing and he was watching over her???
If you know anything about the Jewish holidays you know that they run on a totally different calendar that we use, and that the rarely ever fall on the same date…ever! When my Poppy died 27 years ago, it was April 8th and the first night of Passover. The other thing that is very vivid in our minds about the day of his death is the snow storm that hit our area of New York…yes, in April. So yesterday was April 8th, the first night of Passover (The first night of Passover has not fell on April 8th since the day he died) and could you imagine the emotion that fell over the Seder (traditional Passover meal) table when we got a call that it was once again snowing in New York. Could it be that he wanted us to know that he was with us while my family was going through the most difficult time of our lives???
There have been many very random occurrences in my life that only this wonderful man could have caused:
When my daughter was a year old I had decided it was time to send her to pre-school and it was time for me to go back to work. This (as all you mothers know is probably more difficult on us mommies than on our little angels). The theme for the first week was “The Places We Will Go” (yes, inspired by the Dr. Seuss book). One of the art projects they made that week involved cut up pieces of random maps being glued on paper. When I got her project home and took a closer look it was maps of New York (pretty funny since I live in Florida). So I got curious and checked out the streets. I was amazed, baffled, and emotional when I realized that on one of the cut up pieces was the cemetery where my Poppy is buried. To this day that art project is framed with a picture of him and hangs over her bed. Could it be that he thought I was doing the right thing and he was watching over her???
I could go on for days with other similar occurrences, but the reason for this post is to share what I learned yesterday…
If you know anything about the Jewish holidays you know that they run on a totally different calendar that we use, and that the rarely ever fall on the same date…ever! When my Poppy died 27 years ago, it was April 8th and the first night of Passover. The other thing that is very vivid in our minds about the day of his death is the snow storm that hit our area of New York…yes, in April. So yesterday was April 8th, the first night of Passover (The first night of Passover has not fell on April 8th since the day he died) and could you imagine the emotion that fell over the Seder (traditional Passover meal) table when we got a call that it was once again snowing in New York. Could it be that he wanted us to know that he was with us while my family was going through the most difficult time of our lives???
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